Change? What change?

Our 5 minute attempt at a family pic, John hates it. So, it's not great...it's the only decent one we got.She just lost both her teeth!!
No nap...ALL DAY! He refused to sleep, and cry instead. Finally, around 6pm he crashed after a snack.
Tyler has 6 teeth now and started walking around 10 months but still only does it very short distances, like between the couch and table and once from the living room to the stove. So it will be soon that he is walking everywhere.

Well, what hasn't changed in the last few months? I can't believe I have not posted since September! Life has been chaotic to say the least and I have been saying I am going to update soon, for a long time now. Finally,here we go...as most of you know...the biggest changes have been...
1. I am now homeschooling Madison.
2. I don't have the other 4 kids anymore, they went to live with their nanny.
3. I am pregnant.

YIKES! Yep, I am pregnant. Not planned, not happy about it, but nothing I can do about it. Or nothing I am willing to do about it. I am trying to be happy about it, but it's hard. I was sick at first but still not near as bad as with Madison and Tyler. I am 11 weeks now and feeling much better. I am worried about how I will handle it. Tyler is still so young, 11 month! And he is SUCH a momma's boy. He is very attached to me and it's frustrating sometimes. I think there is going to be a lot of jealousy there. Madison and I both think this baby is a girl. I am seeing a midwife, and will be having a home birth. No, I am not crazy...that is what my body was made to do so just shut up about it if you have a problem with it. We are pretty overwhelmed with the thought of another baby but we know we just have to make the best out of it. I know once the baby is here, I wouldn't have it any other way. And after the first year or two, things will get much easier but I am not looking forward to having an 18 month old and a newborn and homeschooling Madison. I am not sure if she will be going back to school next year or not. She does not want to, she gets upset any time I mention it. Homeschool is going well though, she loves to learn. It's nice being able to just do things on our own time, when we are both in the mood and stop when it gets frustrating. If nothing else, it was nice to do this year, not sure how long I will do it.

Tyler is about to be ONE!!! Oh my gosh, where has the year gone??? We will be having him a birthday party soon a few weeks early probably, bc I do not think John will be here for that or Christmas, so we will pretend Christmas came a little early as well. Madison will not mind getting gifts early at all. I am sad he won't be here, but just gotta deal.

We have had a hell of a few months between John being gone, family drama, me being sick and pregnant, my back messing up, Madison breaking her arm right as school started and then Tyler breaking his and dealing with CPS,it has just been one crappy thing after another. I am looking forward to the new year, a fresh start, a positive outlook and just making the best out of things. Through this all, John and I have proved we are strong and support each other 100%. I pray this year will be better for us!

I have been a terrible photographer/mom as far as taking pics goes. I don't really have a ton to update lik you would think in 3-4 months. With being sick, I barely picked up my camera and things have just been crazy. I am itching to start shooting more though so hopefully things will pick up and I will feel good for a while through the second trimester until I am miserable again in the third.